Its a boy, not a girl

Everyone was right. and it is all my fault. If i didn't boast so much about how much I wanted a girl, everyone probably would not be thinking "oh well then, she will have a boy" But i couldn't help it!!! I really feel so differently about pregnancy now, and feel even worse for feeling that way!! When the Dr. said there was outdoor plumbing, in refernece to the ultrasound picture, i stopped breathing.

"Are you sure"

"Yes, it doesnt get any clearer than that" ( pointing to "it" on the computer screen)

I couldn't help it. I started crying. I didn't know if it was because of actually finding out, or because it wasn't what i had been expecting to hear. I was releved to not hear any bad news about the babys health, and feel very blessed for that. However I can't fake this. My point was proven when i went to take back the most adorable clothes ever (for a girl) and was searching the store for baby boy clothes! They just don't make any......reason #1 for my feelings!!!! Now you say, if not any cute boy clothes is the only reason your disappointed, grow up sabrina, well i would, but there is also no cute boy ANYTHING!! They just dont make boy stuff! It's like the world is telling us, we have enough boys, here is a store full of girls clothes and a corner for those of you that have boys. I shall be in shock for a while and want to be alone.

On another note, as promised. Here are some pics of the boy inside me, not a girl.

16 1/2 weeks

My sister in law made me, and if you know kendall, you know she won't leave you alone until you do what she wants, literally ( love you ken) So, she said you just HAVE to take a pic of your belly, i swear i had no idea you could tell this much, I guess i never walk around holding my stomach like this. So here is the first official pic, i will start doing regular post's now that I know you can tell.


Here is me last night, april 3




Here is me today, april 4th.

Lets see......

Where have I been? Well, all over the small town of St. George, thats what happen's when you work 3 jobs and live in another zip code. My jobs could not be farther apart, well actually they could but oh well. And when I try to eat lunch at home, I wonder if it is worth it to drive the extra 40 min round trip. So far i work at starbucks, free coffee and tips-pretty cool. Tuesday Mornings, have sheets and towles in every color and enough stuff to stage a 4 bedroom house-even cooler. And a personal assistant for a guy who really needed one-very busy. None of these jobs are careers, which is frusterating. I can't wait to have to be at home so I can start school again and a life full of knowledge-I am dying to learn and feel like part of this world so I can make a change! My 2 previous yrs of college were a waste because I did not know what I wanted to do, therefore doing nothing. Pregnancy is going well, I always new i was special and it was just confirmed. I have a blood type that only 15% of woman have, which means i have to get a few shots so my body doesnt fight off my fetus. Actually pretty mad, I thought pregnancy would go perfect, instead im finding out everything that could go wrong! Im not in pregnant clothes yet, so pictures are no fun. Unless you want to see what i looked liked in college when I gained some weight, just chubby. But I can't wait to start showing! I saw my stomach move last night and almost threw up, it reminded me of the matrix when they shoot those bug things into Keanu Reeves and you can see them crawling through his skin. Probably not how I should feel, but oh well!

Mom car

Well, i guess im pretty glad i got pregnant because it made me have to get a new car. The jetta was not cuttin it for a car seat and a 6'3" husband. So i went out and bought a new Mom car! I love it, well i don't love it, it's no BMW........but it will do. We looked for a while, and decided a saturn vue was in our price range, plus we liked the way it looked. This is only the second time i have gotten a "new" car, well it's not new but an 05' isn't that bad, and I always end up getting the car i think I could never get. When he showed it to me, with how cute it is, the low miles,the fact that you can tell which direction your going plus the temputure in the rear view window and the year, I thought I cant afford that car-but what do ya know- I guess I can! It will be perfect for my new lifestlye filled with strollers, car seats, and crying baby. Plus the bass rocks and tinted windows makes it extra hot for a new mom.

Im taking prayers

This could be all wrong, I could be going to hell for just the thought......but I want a girl. Now, I also want a healthy baby much more than a little mini me, but Im just that girl who is meant to have girl. I feel awful for thinking it and even got quite upset reading an article about a woman who had two boys and was devastated when she found out her third child was a gonna be a girl. She says she doesn't understand girls and they are manipulative, and she loves her boys. I felt bad for this baby girl. Now this won't be me, if i have all boys I will be happy with them and then adopt a female. I feel it's an experience I couldn't imagine going through life not having. I love the relationship me and my mom have, and me and bootsy.....id like to have it with a human too. Sisters are amazing too, I never had one and would love to give that relationship to my children. I love my brother more than anything, don't get me wrong. I want more than one child and I want my child to have a brother and a sister, but for now I hope this person inside me is a girl. I cry when I look at little girl clothes, and I get bored looking at boy clothes. I have amazing girl names and can't decide on a boy name. Im pretty horrible, if my son reads this in a few yrs, I love you and im sorry if I put you in a few girly outfits and made you listen to britney spears.

Just perfect

September 15th!!

Is the due date for my princess/prince!! I had my first appt today and it was great! They said everything looked great, Im 11 weeks and we even got to see it!! The Dr. tried to get the heartbeat up on the doplar, but she said it was a crappy one so she went to get another one and came back with the actual Dr. who will deliver and he offered to do an Ultrasound. I must say Im not sure aaron and I actually believed there was a person in me until now. It was even moving!! How cute-its head is HUGE and it's little legs and arms short, and we saw the brain! How amazing! Cant wait to find out the sex in 9 weeks!